Finding focus

This week, I've been down in the dumps. I've been feeling really depressed and physically ill. I haven't been keeping food down, my stomach has been in knots, my head has been pounding. I've really just been a hot mess. I've been feeling spread too thin and really uncared for. I blame nobody in particular, but I also have recognized that social media (aka facebook) has not helped to make me feel any better about myself or about life in general.

So I took a hiatus. I resigned from various organizations which were asking a bit too much of me. I deleted my facebook account, I turned off my phone, and suddenly I was able to re-focus on the important things.

Work. My husband. My dissertation. A little introspection. Logging some miles. Me. Myself. I.

My husband took a little time off of work to spend quality time with me and help me to re-focus. We turned off the TV and we talked. We ate icecream late at night, and we giggled. And when I burst into another round of uncontrollable tears, he held me until they dried up. And then he forced me to put my running shoes on and go for a short and brisk 3 mile stroll around the block.

I know that this exercise dramatically helped.


Its not perfect, but its a good enough start. I've now had that time away and a bit of time for self-reflection, and I have been reminded of what the important things are, and what is just fluff.

It was good to be away from social media. It was healthy to shut off the outside world and limit my screentime. It was good to refocus my energies on myself.

And now I am feeling recharged and ready for the next phase.